The Girl

Hello You.  Thank you for dropping in.  I love it here (my husband made it for me!), and I hope you will enjoy yourself too.  When Nathan first mentioned the title, Cafe of Grace, I quickly refused!  I mean, I do not own a cafe, and I would hate for people to be disappointed that this wasn’t a real place they could walk into and drink a cup of coffee or tea and just relax.  Then, God began to do a work within my heart, mind, and spirit. He opened my eyes to this “hidden message” of grace Nathan said he saw within my amateur words.  I began to see this weaving of grace that held all of these words – all of me – together.  So, I went back to that Sweet Man and said I was for it, though I still didn’t see how it would all work.  So, this is a work in progress; mainly because I’m not yet sure what kind of work this will be.

I joined this blogworld several years ago just to write, and I did very little.  Then, I picked back up again to write from time to time what this family of mine is doing.  Over the past few years my writings have come to include my conversations with Father, my convictions and my messiness.  I have become more real, more open, and more thankful. I write about lessons I’m learning, beauty I am observing, and the grace I am experiencing. I tend to be too serious, a bit nostalgic, and sometimes quirky.  I’m still not sure what this is all about, but whatever it is, it is all by His grace!

If you visit I hope we get the opportunity to be friends…if only through words.

Now, about The Girl…I was born and raised in North Carolina.  After high school I traveled to Missouri where I attended college and met that very creative husband.  We moved to Colorado Springs in 2006 with our 3 boys…then added a little girl in 2009…then another little girl in 2013.  We came here to start a Church Family…and She is growing strong!  The Guitar Player-husband gets to do just that…play the guitar and lead others in musical worship on Sunday’s, as well as learn to lead others in a lifestyle of worship 24/7. He also has been amazingly gifted to learn on his own (how irritating to those of us – ME – who can never do that) how to build websites and create graphic art.  He faithfully leads me and this household too!  I have this amazing opportunity to stay home with my children and teach them.  What you ask?  Well, a little of this and a little of that.  Truly!  Every year we add and delete, and though this flexibility can be freeing, I do hope to find a more consistent rhythm at some point!  Some days I teach them how to share, not fight, use kind words, put toys away, feed the dogs, mix the dough for the bread.  Other days I teach them about forgiveness, by asking it of them.  This year (2015-2016) we sent the whole slew of them (minus Baby Ruth) to school.  So, teaching looks different now; in fact, it looks a lot like coaching and discipleship and that looks a lot more like me.  I still have days when I lose it and then I have days when I go to bed so full of what I’ve gained.  We are in this together by His design…

What do I believe?  I stand with my husband and Church Family and say, we believe…

The Bible is the final authority for all we believe. (2 Timothy 3:16, 17)

We believe there is one God, eternally existing in three persons (the Trinity): Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. (John 1:1-14)

We believe God is the Creator of everything. (Genesis 1:1)

We believe we have all chosen to walk away from God and will justly die. (Romans 3:236:23)

We believe salvation is by the grace of God, not something we can earn on our own effort. It is found only in Jesus. (Romans 6:23John 14:6Ephesians 2:8, 9)

We believe Jesus is “God with us”. He was born of a virgin, lived a sinless life, died to bring us back into a right relationship with God, rose from the dead, is now in heaven preparing an eternal home for those who follow Him, and will one day return. (Luke 1:1-4)

We believe the biblical response to God’s grace shown through Jesus is to turn from our sinful lives, declare Jesus as Lord, be immersed in His Name, and continue to grow in our relationship and knowledge of Him by loving Him with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength, and loving our neighbors as ourselves. (Acts 2:38, 39)

We believe those who have responded appropriately to God’s grace have His Spirit living in them, directing and guiding them. (Acts 2:382 Corinthians 5:4, 5)

We believe life doesn’t stop here. There will be a judgment of every person with those who have decided to live with and for Jesus inheriting eternal life and those who have decided to live without Jesus facing eternal separation from God. (Revelation 20:11-13)

We believe all who have accepted Jesus as Lord are joined together in His family, the Church. (Romans 12:4, 5)

My Passion?  Him.  His Life.  His Passion. His Bride. Prayer!

My Prayer?  That I grow in this Passion.  That I breathe no other air, eat no other manna, love no other god.  (And that my husband, children, and The Bride of Christ would do the same!)

My Verse?  Ha!  Truly, can there be just one?  Most days, though, it almost always includes Psalm 46:10…Be still and know that I am God…I will be exalted…!  Recently God opened my eyes to Psalm 73:28…The nearness of God is my good.  This verse has quite powerfully stolen my heart!

My Song(s)?  “Be Thou My Vision” and “I Know Whom I Have Believed” and “How Great Is Our God” and “How He Loves” and “Blessings” and “Say the Word” and “Holy Spirit” and “For Your Splendor” and

My Banner: Cafe of Grace: living every moment steeped in His grace.  I love cafes!  I like to walk in, feel the nostalgia of quietness, rest, hot cups of coffee, and a special spot just for me.  It’s a place I can read and write and ponder all alone or meet a special friend to enjoy sweet fellowship.

I need His grace!  I find the closer I get to God, the more I recognize my need for it!  His holiness beckons to me, and the only way I can come into His presence, is by His grace alone.  I used to sing this song in youth group with my best friend Hannah:

As I come into Your presence
Past the gates of praise
Into Your sanctuary
‘Til we’re standing face to face
I look upon You’re countenance
I see the fullness of Your grace
I can only bow down.. and say

You are awesome in this place,

Mighty God
You are awesome in this place,
Abba Father
You are worthy of our praise,
To You our life’s will raise
You are awesome in this place,
Mighty God

You are worthy of our praise,
To You our life’s will raise
You are awesome in this place,
Mighty God

Awesome in this Place

 

Do you know that just copying and pasting it causes me to tear up.  It’s like my wedding song – the one I get to walk down the aisle to as I walk into Christ’s outstretched arms. One day I will get to see the fullness of His grace; until then, I will live every day opening my eyes to, soaking in, and drinking deeply of it!

When you come to visit, I pray you can “walk in,” find your place (be it silent and alone or in the company of others), and grab your very own cup of grace!

Thank you again for coming to “see” me.  The candlelights will always be lit, awaiting your arrival and return.  You are wonderful and I am thankful!

Until,

Anastasia