It’s been awhile since I last posted.  Here my husband worked so hard to get me a new look with all kinds of gadgets and I take a sabbatical!  Truth be told, God’s been “blogging” a bit into my own life.  We have been redoing floors and cabinets and thoughts and dreams and expectations and attitudes!  I’ve been a mess!  I hate to say how poorly I behaved through a week and a half of renovating.  It was ridiculous!  I drew some challenging conclusions – one of which was, if I couldn’t remain godly in my mind and actions through just one week of physical upheaval, I was in BIG trouble!  There was no real suffering going on.  No physical pain (lots of allergies, but no pain), no spiritual oppression (unless it was of my own doing), and no “hard” times. It was a week that should have been exciting, adventurous, handled with patience and calmness.  But was it?  No way!  I sat numb for a few days, frustrated for a few more, and by the end of a week and a half I found I had barely existed – definitely not lived!  Sad, sad, sad!!!

I am tormented with things – key word: things – like lack of green grass, the left side of my yard that is dirt covered, weeds in the garden, walls that haven’t been painted yet, old furniture, carpet stains…you know, the American list of woes.  Wow, how did I become this person?  Aren’t I about the business of Christ?  Aren’t I “seeking first His Kingdom and righteousness?”  Am I not being disciplined, firm, “strengthened in the faith as (I) was taught, and overflowing with thankfulness”?  Have I given up becoming less so He can become more?  Will I confine joy to a certain environment and schedule or will I choose to see Him everywhere I am, every day?  Will I forfeit long-term blessings for instant gratification or will I patiently endure without shrinking back, pressing on to the prize?

Hebrews NLT

1 So we must listen very carefully to the truth we have heard, or we may drift away from it. 2 For the message God delivered through angels has always stood firm, and every violation of the law and every act of disobedience was punished. 3 So what makes us think we can escape if we ignore this great salvation that was first announced by the Lord Jesus himself and then delivered to us by those who heard him speak? 4 And God confirmed the message by giving signs and wonders and various miracles and gifts of the Holy Spirit whenever he chose (2:1-4)…12 For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires. 13 Nothing in all creation is hidden from God. Everything is naked and exposed before his eyes, and he is the one to whom we are accountable.(4:12:13)…11 There is much more we would like to say about this, but it is difficult to explain, especially since you are spiritually dull and don’t seem to listen. 12 You have been believers so long now that you ought to be teaching others. Instead, you need someone to teach you again the basic things about God’s word.[c] You are like babies who need milk and cannot eat solid food. 13 For someone who lives on milk is still an infant and doesn’t know how to do what is right. 14 Solid food is for those who are mature, who through training have the skill to recognize the difference between right and wrong.(5:11-14)…

32 Think back on those early days when you first learned about Christ. Remember how you remained faithful even though it meant terrible suffering. 33 Sometimes you were exposed to public ridicule and were beaten, and sometimes you helped others who were suffering the same things. 34 You suffered along with those who were thrown into jail, and when all you owned was taken from you, you accepted it with joy. You knew there were better things waiting for you that will last forever.35 So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! 36 Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised.

37 “For in just a little while,
the Coming One will come and not delay.
38 And my righteous ones will live by faith.
But I will take no pleasure in anyone who turns away.” 39 But we are not like those who turn away from God to their own destruction. We are the faithful ones, whose souls will be saved.(10:32-39)

Since without faith (belief with legs) it is IMPOSSIBLE to please God, I purpose to stay on course.  To not turn to the right or to the left.  To go boldly to the throne of God.  To let His Word pierce right through me so that I may die in order to live!  I will not crouch and cower; I will stand boldly on the promises of God…which are “yes” in Christ.  I will have faith (belief with legs) that He Is Good!  I will rise daily, lift my palms, spread the fingers, and accept and give with a smile…knowing that in Him all promises are “yes” and all “no’s” are only allowed because a “yes” is being said to something else.  I will be my Father’s child!  I will live that others will know Whose I am.  I will proclaim Him, and He will proclaim me to His Father.  I will learn to live fully right where I am and not partially everywhere I am not.  I will say “thank you” and dwell in rest and communion with my Savior.  I will purpose to keep – not trade – my joy!  I will not remain a student when I should be a teacher!  I will not ask questions without accepting answers.  I will believe God is Who He says He Is…ABLE.  Not me…but He!  I will yield.