In The Wee Small Hours of the Morning…
So, (I’m just gonna jump right in here) ever since I was in college (may have been high school but all I can remember back to is college) my “date” time with God has been 4:30 am. This was not my idea, mind you, but it has become quite a tradition of mine and God’s. Sometimes, He is the only one awake for this time together, and sometimes I lie awake going, so “let’s talk already!!!” And as is the common relationship among women and men, most of the time He doesn’t talk like I’d like Him to! He just wants me to sit there with Him! And at 4:30 in the morning! Well, since I’ve become pregnant with our blessing number 4 we’ve been at this date-thing again full swing. Last night was no exception…
I had had an “emotional day” – one where the kids were less focused than usual and I was more frenzied than usual and we all ended up in some grumpy or sad mood by the afternoon. By the time Nathan came home I was ready to go to bed, cry, sleep, wake up and cry some more, sleep…but I would never have admitted that then! After all I still had supper to make, a kitchen to clean, a meeting at my house, and a dinner with the ladies. Crying was just not on the top of the priority list! (It rarely is.)
So, after everything was “checked off” the list of to-do’s I did head to bed and prayed while crying about the day, about my worries, about my insecurities, about my children, about our family…thank goodness God never sleeps – my life alone requires Him to have a much longer day than 24 hours! At some point I fell asleep and then at some point before the sun had a chance to make it to our side of the world, I woke up. After about an hour and a half of tossing and turning and NOT sleeping I told God once again that I was listening and to PLEASE speak! Silence…until I finally did drift off for a little while before Nathan’s alarm went off.
So I stumbled out of bed this morning, got the kids settled, got me some much needed coffee, and went upstairs for my moment of alone time in the bathroom. I grabbed my Daily Light book (a collection of scriptures for each day) and this, my friends, is what awaited me…
Sit still, my daughter. (Ha!)
Take heed, and be quiet; do not fear or be fainthearted.
Be still, and know that I am God. (My life verse for good reason!)
Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God. (That alone should settle me over my worries!)
The loftiness of man shall be bowed down, and the haughtiness of men shall be brought low; the LORD alone will be exalted in that day.
Mary…sat at Jesus’ feet and heard His word.
Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.
In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and confidence shall be your strength. (There’s the trick; I just need to hush!)
Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still (He must have been watching last night!)
Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
He will not be afraid of evil tidings; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD. His heart is established.
Whoever believes will not act hastily.
(Ruth 3:18; Isa. 7:4; Ps. 46:10; John 11:40; Isa. 2:17; Luke 10:39, 42; Isa. 30:15; Ps. 4:4; Ps. 37:7; Ps. 112:7-8; Isa. 28:16)
Well, I would have started crying right then and there but my “alone time” had been cut short and I was no longer the only one in the room. (Surprised? Me either:)) So, instead I decided if I had a moment I would “blog” about this wonderful and precious experience between God and I. He has been doing “little things” recently to make me feel special and this morning was no exception. Though I do wonder why, if He was going to give me this sweet message this morning, I had to be up so blasted long before the sun was up, but “His ways are not our ways!”
Anyway, if there are any of my friends out there who are tossing and turning physically, spiritually, or both, may these very alive and active Words from our loving Father encourage, hold, and bless you! He Is – yesterday, today, and forever! May that Truth just really sink in. The very same God who held the Sea back for the Israelites to pass through and caused the sun to remain through a night and another day for Joshua and walked His children through the wilderness for 40 years without letting their clothes or sandals wear out is the One who lives in You! Imagine the Power that resides in you! Now live – humbly, quietly, and being “still” in His presence, yes, but also powerfully in Him!