8 months (or more) of not sleeping through the night, a morning of chaos before 8:30, prayers, laughter, wrong-doing, seeking forgiveness…ummm, and that’s just my personal story not to mention the rest of the household. I want to throw my hands up in frustration and anger, which is my fleshly fallback. Then I remember how far He’s brought me, I see their smiles, I see how big those boys are getting, I realize how short my time with them is, and I know this above all…I have a choice. I can choose to respond in love because Love lives in me. I am free to love; I don’t have to live in the bondage of sin.
Father, I simply come, already at the end of myself this morning. They all need me, a few might actually want me, but all I want and need is to hide away with You. Help me to live beneath the shelter of your wings today because as much as I want to hide, I know I need to seek. I need to seek you, to seek out time with each of them, and to seek ways to bless and love. Do through me what I cannot.
7 Display the wonders of Your faithful love,
Savior of all who seek refuge
from those who rebel against Your right hand.[a] 8 Protect me as the pupil of Your eye;
hide me in the shadow of Your wings Psalm 17
Then they entered into a covenant to seek the Lord God of their ancestors with all their mind and all their heart.
2 Chron. 15:12
The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer, my God, my mountain where I seek refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.