Has it only been February? Can a life really hold so much in 28 days? I sat in bed before Husband turned off the lights, while he was still reading The Word, and recapped February in the list of a thousand and more. I just didn’t want to forget – ever!
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beautiful snow this morning
Aaron sneaking down early just to have his alone time with me
Timothy sharing scripture with his Momma
Valentine’s party with friends
Valentine’s party with Timothy
correcting kids in the middle of Target
sweet tea spilled. right. after. I mopped.
it’s a girl!
flowers from Nathan
Valentine’s Day dinner with Nathan
provision…double provision!
a moment to sit in stillness and read and give thanks
Father’s divine protection
friends that stick close
a husband who bares more from his wife than he should have to
light rising earlier
an opportunity to watch the goodness of God have room to work
hard realities, hard attitudes, hard actions and reactions – HARD
a new day
He’s still watching over us!
beautiful snow
watching our’s play in the snow
hot drinks all around to warm us
brushing Maddy (the dog)
reading
a husband who has kept us safe…who spent all day continuing to insure our safety
the power of His presence when fear in the night could consume me
conviction to by humbled by
a hard time with a friend
another new day
Father is for us!
Nathan’s home!
new door locks
looking at ideas with Nathan
baby girl moving for her brother, sister, Mommy, and Daddy
Hannah’s sick
watching old home videos with Nathan
his morning hug and kiss
all my boys waking early
up with my sick girl throughout the night
the whole book of James!
missing a friend
broken toilet
hay wire van
robbed
i.d. stolen
Hannah being dehydrated, not able to eat, not smiling
we are safe
Nathan has us protected
Nathan’s hard, long work
hope for me and a friend
no lump!
sweet gifts from Church Family
more friends having babies
Hannah being hydrated
now a friend is sick
all tickets and car rental for NC trip bought and paid for at an amazing rate!
talking with Hannah and her prayers and her encouragement
a letter from Dad
lots of snow
cleaning for 5 hours
Timothy’s forgiveness
eating gummy bears with Aaron
internet not working
internet working
boxes of Kleenexes from Costco
Chinese with a friend – right before the sicknesses hit
prayer-texts from friends
Over all, under all, through all – PEACE. Not always cheerful or smiling. Not always without tears or trembling. Not always without anger that needed to be surrendered or pride that needed to be humbled. Not always quick to do His will and give thanksgiving. Not always knowing exactly what to do or what to say. Not always feeling but always knowing PEACE because I always know Him. “I know Whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I’ve committed unto Him against that day!” “He will be called…Prince of Peace…”
From February’s journaling…
“Fill me, fill me, fill me! More today than yesterday! Fill me that I may not leave devastation and destruction in my wake, but rather, the aroma – the fragrance of Christ to lift the lonely, to spur on the staller, to encourage the downcast, to grace the sinner like me!” (2/1)
“To have freedom from fear and to trust You and to live in perfect peace – heaven! I know that’s what it’ll be like with You in glory, but it is promised even now! If I can have it now, why wait!? What will it take to be in the midst of the storm and fear not? How to know rest in You in a restless circumstance? To trust. To know Your love and the power of Your resurrection. To know Whom I have believed…” (written on 2/4…before the robbery and i.d. theft and sickness…before experiencing the PEACE that passes all!)
“I pray the hostility of late is humbling and pruning me – making me less so that You can be more in my life…and in the lives of others. I also beg to have help, strength, courage, and no fear to live a life that is worthy of the calling of Christ! I don’t want to be casual or complacent – Father move me! I know this will involve me getting uncomfortable – more whittling away, but there is no alternative! It must be done for Your Kingdom to come and Your will to be done on earth as it is heaven!…I cannot be like Christ and make myself comfortable here!” (2/10…before it all…)
“Forgive me! Instead of embracing these “sufferings” with patience, I have opened my mouth in condemnation and anger and pride and judgement…Please forgive me! I want to do this like you Jesus! “Oh, self die!”” (2/19…two days after…)
“He withholds no good thing from those He loves!”…this “mission” would train me and refine me to become all that I really do want to be – more like Jesus! A pure light in this dark world. A genuine love in a jaded place. A selfless woman in a selfish culture. A trusting child in a suspicious crowd. A joyful face – Lord help! – among the stale frowns. A praising heart in the midst of so much slander and pessimism…Whatever it takes refine!” (2/20)
“Father,
Only You know the joy and happiness and peace that was restored to me yesterday when Nathan was prevented from leaving by the snowstorm. I hadn’t even known how I had been depleted until I was restored! Thank you!…I beg to live love! Most days I feel like a cripple in this area…Fill me, fill me, fill me with Your Spirit! Consume me with Your fire – a fire that refines me into something beautiful! For the sake of their salvation and for the sake of Your Name and glory! May I truly live a “simple life” in You. The life of David, Daniel, Isaiah, Elisha, Paul, Jesus – simple obedience…By Your Grace.” (2/25)
“Father…(concerning my life) No masks, no flashy adornments, no question – just simple obedience to an awesome God Who still takes 5 loaves and 2 fish and feeds thousands for His Kingdom. May my life of faith be as a mustard seed.” (2/28)
“S. Rutherford said that there are some who would have Christ cheap, Christ ‘without the Cross. But the price will not come down.’ Will you pay the price to live a crucified life? Are you warmed or repelled by the thought of a hard life?” ~Amy Carmichael
#2838 – Ahh, Hannah’s smiling again!
