15Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 2 Timothy 2 KJV
If you cannot express yourself on any subject, struggle until you can. If you do not, someone will be the poorer all the days of his life. Struggle to reexpress some truth of God to yourself, and God will use that expression to someone else. Go through the winepress of God where the grapes are crushed. You must struggle to get expression experimentally, then there will come a time when that expression will become the very wine of strengthening to someone else; but if you say lazily – “I am not going to struggle to express this thing for myself, I will borrow what I say,” the expression will not only be of no use to you, but of no use to anyone. Try to state to yourself what you feel implicitly to be God’s truth, and you give God a chance to pass it on to someone else through you.
Always make a practice of provoking your own mind to think out what it accepts easily. Our position is not ours until we make it ours by suffering. The author who benefits you most is not the one who tells you something you did not know before, but the one who gives expression to the truth that has been dumbly struggling in you for utterance.
~My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers
Once again, He is right on time! His Words – Truth are ever timely! As hard as it is to express myself on the world wide web or in magazine articles, for all to see and criticize, it is beneficial to my “study”. I need to work these thoughts and experiences out, and writing them down – and sharing them – is a way in which I do this. This blog or my studying gives me a solid place to stand, as I work out my faith with fear and trembling and as I prepare myself to always be ready with an answer. There are other reasons I do this thing, but maybe this is my top good reason.