Faith never knows…

Faith never knows where it is being led, but it loves and knows the One Who is leading.  It is a life of faith, not of intellect and reason, but a life of knowing Who makes us “go”…The life of faith is not a life of mounting up with wings, but a life of walking and not fainting.  It is not a question of sanctification; but of something infinitely further on than sanctification, of faith that has been tried and proved and has stood the test…Abraham believed God.

~Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest

Some circumstances have come up; instances that are requiring me to do the thing that has been so hard for me – to trust Him completely.  Here is where you realize you have no control, and any reaching will be grasping in the wind.  Here is where all men and women of faith truly began – by saying “Yes.”  It doesn’t begin with a map or manmade plans or self-confidence or even understanding.  Here is where it begins – with trusting the One Who knows and the only knowing is knowing that He is enough.

Faith never knows where it is being led, but it loves and knows the One Who is leading.

There has never been a “relationship” with my day planners – trust me!  Most of the time I forget to even use it after the first week!  I know many who know how to use and utilize such things, but I just don’t.  I can be fairly organized with my paper notes flying here and there and an occasional penned-in appointment on the whiteboard or Chick-Fil-A Calendar, but there is “nothing between us”.

Now, God, He is different.  He doesn’t tell me what’s going on at 10 o’clock today or what to set out for dinner tonight.  He and I don’t sit down together and make weekly, monthly, or even yearly plans.  Oh, he lets me plan and dream, but…

Proverbs 16

1 We can make our own plans,
but the LORD gives the right answer.

2 People may be pure in their own eyes,
but the LORD examines their motives.

3 Commit your actions to the LORD,
and your plans will succeed. NLT

In all of my plans, prayers, dreams, and desires I have realized:

~I’m just not going to get it all

~I may not get a lot of it

~If I do get it, it tends to look very different from the picture in my mind

~It wasn’t the “thing” that was the point to Him – it was the “us”.

God performs miracles and moves mountains and does things in the heavens that my eye will never behold, but those things are not His greatest ambition or delight.  Though this world is full of His wonder and beauty and creativity, He has only always been after one thing – “us”.  When God told Abraham to “go” it wasn’t just so He could move a man and his family around and eventually help them conquer and dwell in a land that was not their own.  These circumstances happened at the death of some and the prosperity of others, but the circumstances were only the way to get to the “us”.  This “man of faith” didn’t get this title from having all the answers, nor from seeking them.  In fact, it would seem that he sought few answers but much of God.

Oh that I could just get there…seeking few answers but much of Him!

Most of the time I sit and beg and cry and scream…I want…I need…God don’t You understand…don’t You see?!  And instead of Him giving me the thing, He holds me close and gives me the “us”.

I say, “I want,” and He says, “I Am.”  I say, “I need,” and He says, “I Am.”  I say, “Don’t You understand?” and He says, “Don’t You realize…I Am.”  I say, “Don’t You see?” and He says, “Don’t You see…I Am.”

And still…may I just be real…I have the smallest voice inside that questions, “Really, are You Enough for this?”  And He is patient and He is kind and I am still His object of affection.  And even after this grumbling Israelite offers one more last cry, He still offers Himself…Enough.

When will it happen?  How much must be stripped away before I realize that all I need, really, is Him?  How much longer until He gets at the core of all of me and I am able to fully experience all of Him?

Faith never knows where…it just loves Him.  Faith isn’t about the destination or the accomplishment or the met need; it’s about Who you’re on the journey with.

 

 1 God told Abram: “Leave your country, your family, and your father’s home for a land that I will show you.

2-3 I’ll make you a great nation
and bless you.
I’ll make you famous;
you’ll be a blessing.
I’ll bless those who bless you;
those who curse you I’ll curse.
All the families of the Earth
will be blessed through you.”

4-6 So Abram left just as God said…Genesis 12 The Message

By faith Abraham…Hebrews 11:8 NASB